I tend to experience life in waves. Most of the time the waves are small and I can float through life day to day with no problems. But sometimes, the waves get bigger and I feel like I’m swimming through a storm in my own mind. I feel like nobody else can tell when these storms happen because I’m so adept at putting on my best face. The face that looks normal, the persona that says I feel normal, the ‘joker’ attitude, or the ‘I don’t care’ attitude. When really it feels as though I’m drowning. I don’t know how I keep holding onto these secrets, but at the moment they’re weighing me down.
I’ll probably feel normal again tomorrow and regret writing this post. But, this is an authentic blog so here I am.
I haven’t been writing as much because I’m back at uni now. I’ll still post, but less frequently. When summer holidays come though, I’ll be struggling not to write every day. Come on October!